January 2011
27 posts
YEAH! I got DRUNK!
So I had finally had enough of everyone spiting me, and I had enough of obsessing, and I had enough of being afraid. So yesterday afternoon after dance practice, I asked my friend Erin to get Nicole and I a bottle of cherry vodka burnet’s. Then, I went back, had dinner, and got ready for what would be a pretty damn good first-time drunk story.
We split the bottle in half into water bottles...
I don’t have to be afraid anymore. I can go out and have fun. I went out tonight, and eventually it got fun. But I seriously don’t even think I want to drink. Ever. Maybe tomorrow. And that’s it. I’m just waiting to get that experience that everyone talks about when they’re piss drunk and they do something crazy. I consider the things I do to be pretty crazy already,...
I hate this. I really do. I feel like a wrench is screwing lugnuts into the side of my liver. That’s how I’ve felt since last night. The weather doesn’t help with anything…I just want to know. Well, actually I don’t want to know. Because either way it will kill me inside. I hate what I’ve become, and I hate that I have this feeling. It would be better for it to...
Little Women, Little Women, Little Women. My life now consists of reading Little Women. Quite possibly until my penis falls off.
I'd rather see a full length film explaining why...
samanthapaigee:
pussymustache:
THIS.
lol
However Many Days
Well, last night I watched 500 Days of Summer for the first time. Throughout the entire movie, of course I thought Summer and Joseph Gordon-Levitt’s character were meant to be together. Who wouldn’t? The ending was completely real though. Like his little sister said, he focused too much on the good in the relationship, that’s why he thought they were perfect for each other. But...
I'm Cursed.
That’s it. I’m cursed, and there’s a curse on my family. And it’s all my fault whether you believe it or not. Sorry, guys.
I Know Why
If people keep asking me why I like this one person, I think I know why. I might not even like him as more than a friend. For the first time since sophomore year, I met someone who made me feel like maybe I could be normal with them. All I ever wanted was to be normal; like other guys. But I was never accepted as someone normal until the middle of high school when I had one guy best friend who...
Cosmic Love
The stars, the moon; they have all been blown out.
It’s weird getting a text on my phone today with these lyrics, these same lyrics that inspired me so only about a month ago. This song, Cosmic love, invokes every muscle and joint inside me and creates a sensation to dance; it’s my soul song. And Chris made it his status today. Maybe I have more connection with him than I thought.
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Today has been so hectic. AH! I’m literally typing this as Nicole and Brit are coming to pick me up to go to Wal-Mart.
The first day I got back, I just unpacked and my room was like perfect. Then I went to dinner with Sara and Amy and Courtney and Matt and Mike and then we all went back to the girl’s dorm. It eventually became an all-nighter, because Patrick came over later and they...
Most exciting night of my life!
I’ve never been this excited to go somewhere the next day. I probably won’t sleep tonight out of the excitement! I feel like Harry Potter. “Hogwarts is my home.” Rowan is my home. It hasn’t been the same not being there. I love Rowan and all of its inhabitants, sober or drunk, dopey or brainy. I’m going to spend away these hours of my last night on the coast by...
G-BORO WHADDUP
Filing FAFSA is the most dreadful activity in the world. But I just finished it.
I’m finally cramming in all the little things I should have been doing all break, but it’s already come to a close.
People say you can do a lot within a month’s time, but I don’t know what dimension they were talking about. I barely worked, and I feel like winter break was as long as it has...
Watching SVU =]
Today went well. I did wake up late, but that’s beside the point. I woke up and went to Mainland around the time classes were over. I helped a few people with NJDFL pieces, but mostly I just chilled. Then I went to Wawa and Chelsey’s with Caitlyn Harris, the funniest girl alive. We did random stuff. I just got home and now Shelley’s coming over. I just find it funny that by the...
Any Other Way
“It’s not enough, it’s not enough just to say that you’re okay. I need your hurt; I need your pain. It’s not love any other way.”
God is love. At least, I’ve been taught that my whole life. And I believe that, I truly do. But the trials of this life on Earth has made me question everything about the validity of the Methodist religion. For the past four...
A sad winter break.
Being cooped up inside this wretched split-level for almost a month now has made me realize how pathetically stagnant my life is. I create nothing to which I can put my own name to, and I want that to change with this new year. I am dijawn dr. front, and college has made me forget that.
My workplace neglects me. I don’t know if it’s something to do with my passive...